Yeah so that just made me sniffle a little :P I clearly need to go to bed. /hug
@Dayani: I feel you on that. I've been dealing with a lot of the same things over the last year, at least on the depression front. Different circumstances I'm sure. But it definitely makes doing anything outside of raiding really difficult because my mind just wanders and they become tedious.
Raiding is pretty much one of the few things that keeps me sane right now because it's a set schedule and forces me to focus.
I've just been taking it one step at a time lately. Forcing myself to socialize within the WoW community again, attempting to teach people to monk, stuff like that.
Yes, raiding is a godsend. I get all excited about it and I'm typically very cheerful during it. I'd go utterly nuts if I didn't have it, and if my guild weren't so freaking awesome.
Unfortunately I am feeling some (totally self-inflicted) pressure to do a lot of TC work, outside of raidtime, for the fight we're working on right now.
It started as a fun project (Hey, something seems broken about my druid alt's Soul of the Forest Lifebloom on Tsulong, what's up with that), snowballed into a big deal (Hey, how can I get the absolute most out of my druid's healing on Tsulong?), then got truly ridiculous (So does The Light of Day really have a diminishing +heal boost like the dungeon journal says? *insert hours of furious calculation and log trawling here* Nope! What a freaking liar!) and is now bordering on ludicrous. Pretty soon the fabric of the universe is going to spontaneously become plaid. [Bonus points to anyone who gets that old, old reference.]
So the raiding is fun but I feel like I'm underpreparing because I don't know exactly how we should be handling Day phase (I am still trying to advocate for a "The Light of Dayani" strat, but I doubt I'll convince anyone :D) and blah blah blah I'm neurotic and ugh.
But. I do need to learn how to monk. Because I can't double check my monk spreadsheet without a level 90 monk to test with. I think most of my numbers are correct but my Healing Sphere equation seems off and I can't seem to fix it. My written stuff is definitely out of date, and has been for a while, but every time I go to try to fix it, I just get really close to deleting it. Stupid monks and their non-traditional healing style!
So hmm. Hmmmmm, I say.